Senses Fail

jy het my lief ..

met oë wat verby my foute kyk
met ore wat baljaar op die frekwensie van my plaas-aksent
met hande wat aan my gewrigte vashou wanneer ek laat gaan
met ‘n neus wat die somerreën van my siel kan waardeer
met ‘n mond wat onuitgesproke sinne teen my eie voltooi

.. ek het jou lief

If

(Written by Rudyard Kipling)

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream–and not make dreams your master,
If you can think–and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ‘em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings–nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And–which is more–you’ll be a Man, my son!

I found me in you

The search isn’t over, because there was no search to begin with. You were given to me, unexpectedly. And I will treasure, protect and nurture what we have with my whole being.

I can for the life of me not comprehend why you chose to walk beside ME, if it is no secret that you can walk beside anybody else out there. But you are here and I am grateful.

When our fingers lock, I have no fear. My lungs are filled with the new life you have breathed into them.

I know who I am when I’m with you.

I still don’t like her and I will never love her. But you have shown me who she is .. and taught me who I can be .. if only I would be willing to give her a chance.

I love you for you. And I love you for loving me in return.